Hello

My name is Nicole Reed, and I am a woman in recovery—almost two years clean and sober. I was born as an only child into a loving, supportive family, and I am blessed to be the mother of three wonderful children and the grandmother of eight. Despite the love surrounding me, I struggled with abandonment issues that shaped much of my life. I know firsthand the suffocating grip of addiction and the challenges that life can throw our way.

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For years, I played the role of a people pleaser—trying to be everything to everyone: a mother, wife, aunt, and friend. Raised in a religious home, I lacked a personal relationship with God, and I had no sense of boundaries. When life became overwhelming, I turned to drugs and alcohol. They numbed the pain and the emptiness, giving me a false sense of escape. But in reality, they only deepened the darkness within me.

It wasn't until I began to truly seek a connection with God that my life started to change. Today, with God's guidance and the support of an incredible recovery community, I have learned how to navigate the challenges life brings my way. I’ve come to understand that my relationship with God is the foundation for my healing. He has been the greatest source of strength, love, and guidance in my life.

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For years, I feared being alone, not realizing that God had never left my side. I now know that I am never truly alone. He was with me through every dark moment and every misstep. He never gave up on me, even when I had given up on myself.

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My journey with addiction began at the age of 26, after several medical procedures led to a prescription for pain medication. What started as a way to manage physical pain soon became a crutch for the emotional loneliness I had carried for so long. My struggle grew, and despite completing intensive outpatient treatment, I substituted one dependency for another, turning to Suboxone, trying to escape the weight of depression and anxiety.

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In my attempts to be everything for everyone around me, I neglected the most important person: myself. The spiral deepened. I lost my family, my home, and everything I held dear. But in losing it all, I realized that I had pushed away the very people who loved me. I had convinced myself I wasn’t good enough, and I lost sight of who I truly was.

It was only when I hit rock bottom that I realized I could look up—and that’s where my journey of transformation began. Through faith, I discovered that I was never alone. God met me in my brokenness, just as He did with the one lost sheep, leaving the 99 to bring me back into His fold.

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Now, with nearly two years of sobriety, I am more committed than ever to my personal growth. I am currently enrolled in addiction and substance abuse counseling classes, excited to continue my journey of healing and, ultimately, to help others who are struggling as I once did. My story is proof that no matter how far you fall, redemption and healing are possible.

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Addiction may have had a grip on me, but with God's love and the power of recovery, I am free. Today, I know that I am worthy of love, and I am ready to share that hope with others.

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